I’m feeling anxious about coming out of lockdown and everything going back to normal. 

Since going into a complete lockdown in March 2020, everything has changed, and I hate change. 

Most of the change has not been good. My life as it was before will never go back to the way it was. 

I wasn’t happy before lockdown, but I was working towards being content.

Since lockdown, I’ve lost more people and pets along the way.

Last summer, I worked towards the future and started back at the gym until lockdown hit again in November, destroying Christmas and plans. 

I never went Christmas shopping for the first time in years, doing all of my shopping entirely online, and the trip we planned for the kids on the Polar Express Train got cancelled. 

We went from Tier 1 lockdown, the lowest in the country, to tier 3 lockdown within a few weeks. 

Christmas was cut short, and in January, we went back into lockdown, and the government didn’t partially lift it, and the gym never reopened until April.

I’m not happy about the decision to come out of lockdown with cases higher than they were when the first complete lockdown hit, and people are still dying.

The greedy capitalist government have decided to open everything up in time for the summer. 

I’ve had one vaccination, and the government expect me to travel miles away for my second, which isn’t helpful. I’m feeling anxious about the whole situation. 

They have closed the centre up the road from me probably because the older generation has already had their two jabs, but why is the younger generation expected to travel miles away? 

I’ve emailed my local surgery to ask this question, and they replied by telling me that they have no control over vaccination centres and that I should phone 119.

My anxiety has increased, and I will be doing the same as I’m currently doing and staying in. 

I go to the gym, but straight after I finish, I go straight home, shower and put my clothes in the wash. I go to a supermarket once a week. 

My medication has increased by 75mg, and a situation has led me to get more counselling with Penhaligan Counselling and Mind.

I will continue to wear my mask even if it’s no longer a legal requirement and continue to avoid busy places but will continue to use hand sanitiser.

I have, however, rebooked the Christmas Polar Express trip because the kids are getting older, and it may be the last time we go on a Christmas trip.

Share some of your fears about coming out of lockdown or things you are looking forward to?