Last week, I turned 37 a milestone I never thought I’d make due to my mental health and suicidal tendencies.

I always thought I’d be joining the 27 club with some of my musical idols.

Turning 37 is weird for me as I’m not in the place I thought I’d be but then again who is? By the age of 25, I expected to be married, with kids, a career, and a better car instead I’m a freelancer with no kids or partner and still living at home.

Unfortunately, like many others, I’ve been in the wrong place at the wrong time, and instead of life running smoothly and everything falling into place.

I have dealt with some of the hardest life lessons ever. I’m not being negative or giving the hard done by story, it’s just my perspective on life.

Last week, I spent the day before my birthday with my Mum, sister, and my niece and nephew and received a Rhino pandora link and we had cake.

On my birthday, I spent it with a mate who also treated me with a cake and I went kickboxing.

I went for a run in my new Nike clothes last Wednesday after receiving 25% off on Nike clothing for my birthday.

My Mum brought me some guitar strings for my acoustic Epiphone and some Nike football bottoms and I purchased a long sleeve top and a t-shirt for training and running.

I also treated myself to my first ever pair of Nike Air trainers. These were big in the 90s but I never had these before.

I also treated myself to an iPhone XR which I brought off the Facebook Marketplace.

Two years ago my parents brought me the iPhone SE for my birthday after my iPhone 5S was stolen from outside my sister’s house.

The iPhone SE started playing up last year and the battery goes down if you turn it off then on again and it only lasts a few hours.

I’m pleased to now have a phone that works a lot better and has a bigger screen.

I also hope to review the iPhone XR on my tech and music blog.

I’ve given up making plans despite turning 37 because I always put too much pressure on myself and get upset when others can’t join me due to other commitments.

Workwise, I’ve been learning and doing some online tests and been looking for ideas for blog posts on both blogs.