I’m getting back on track after temporarily losing the momentum and interest in my blogs, social media, and fitness.

I’ve been taking my eye off the ball because of things that have been happening in my life that I can’t control including the possibility of becoming homeless.

Uncertain future

I feel like a failure because I can’t afford a place of my own to live in let alone being able to buy my parent’s place as a holiday home.

I can’t even afford to rent a place.

For years, I’ve wanted to move away from Cornwall, but I’m not even moving away from Cornwall

In the last 12 months I’ve started going to fitness classes again, joined the gym, swim every day and I’ve made some associates there.

Even though some of them aren’t proper friends, at least I have conversations with people outside my house.

Working on my own can be difficult because I can spend days locked away not seeing anyone.

I went to the doctors at the beginning of the month and they told me that they were getting back in touch with the mental health team.

Surprise, surprise like anything with the CMHT I’m still waiting.

They want to confirm a diagnosis of Bipolar before changing my medication.

I’ve been working hard at the gym and I’ve just started to go back to classes after a month off, but my house has been so chaotic.

My mum has also just come out of hospital from having a hip replacement.

Which means I will probably have less time to get back into my work and fitness as I will have to help out with cleaning, washing, and shopping.

Shopping and a busy month

I’ve purchased a few new goodies this month including 8kg dumbbells, a waist trimmer, and a Nirvana t-shirt from Amazon, two tops, and scarfs in the sale from Fat Face, and a Jean dress from New Look.

In June I’m looking forward to watching Ed Sheeran at Wembley Stadium on the 17th and Pearl Jam at the O2 Arena on the 19th.

I’m away on Father’s Day so I will have to make sure that I get Dad a nice present. Not sure what to get him yet.

I’m going back to Cornwall tonight, for two days of rest, I hope to catch up with my fitness and batter the hell out of my body and get a couple of blog posts and a video up and running.

I have to come back to Exeter for my niece’s ballet show on Saturday and I will return to Cornwall again on Sunday and make a plan so I’m more organised over the next few weeks.

Hopefully I will be back on track with plans soon.