I’ve been keeping myself to myself, but I’ve also been talking to lots of people lately, and I’m unsure when I should be trusting people with my mental health.
I’ve been burnt badly in the past with people using me for money, gifts, and lifts and for someone to hang out with when they aren’t getting on with their partners.
One minute I’m the centre of attention and everyone looks up to me, the next I’m enemy number one.
I don’t have trouble making friends; it’s keeping them.
Some people have gone cold on me without reason, they just stopped contacting me and ignoring me when I’m not sure what I have done wrong?
I have terrible paranoia, and I hate being in crowded places unless I’ve had a few drinks to get me in the party mood.
One of the main reasons I became self-employed is because I can’t work with people as they tend to go off me after a while.
I usually say or do something that most of us would say is crazy, extreme, insane, or just wrong.
My moods are generally high or low, although sometimes I can appear stable, and my work and ideas can range from good to bad depending on my moods.
I have been told that I might have Bipolar 2, although this hasn’t officially been diagnosed.
At the moment I have an incorrect diagnosis, I don’t even know what my mental health illness is?
I’ve made friends with people whose husbands and children have taken an instant dislike to me, and at my age, most people have husbands, boyfriends, best friends, and children.
They will probably think I’m a bit strange and I can’t tell them the reasons why I don’t have those commitments.
If they find out about my shady past, they definitely will think I’m weird, and I’m torn between pushing people away and letting them in?
I wouldn’t say I like the way I look, I hate my figure, and I usually confine myself to my bedroom or the gym nowadays.
I’m not good at judging people, so it’s easy to use and abuse me, and I’m worried people will find out about my mental health and stop wanting to hang out with me.
Or they might only be hanging out with me for lifts to and from places or some other sinister reason?
Does anyone have any advice on when I should be trusting people with my mental health issues?
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